*sigh* ...It rained today... I feel like I'm gonna be sick. I don't know why, but something about rain always makes me feel nauseous.

I didn't get to hang out with anyone yesterday, which made my plans useless. I went to carnival at my brother's school instead. At least there was funnel cake and cotton candy. I finally tried carnival rides after being so deathly afraid of them! (I'm still scared, but in a good way now.)

Gave up on drawing for today... trying to find inspiration for a new song... Yes. I write music. (I really wish I could have posted all of my old stuff before my ex burned it.) Does anyone ever take the time to ask? ...Well... Maybe I should have mentioned it. I can't expect everyone else to ALSO have psychic powers...

I'm kind of down about the fact that I'm still alone. I've constantly questioned why I haven't had much luck with relationships. I took about a month off from dating to work through some problems. At first, I thought "maybe it's the girls I'm dating". Then I realized - what if it's me? I've never been able to fully let go of the fact that my longest relationship was cut short, due to the tragic death of my girlfriend. I really loved her, and I could never let go of the fact that she died. Earlier this month, I spoke to someone about it and they were able to help me work through my emotions and get over it. I learned to remember the good times with her, and that if she's gone, I can't help that. I have to move on and make more happy memories with someone else. Now, I'm ready to get back out there. But still, I can't control the will of others or destiny, so I'm stuck. Maybe soon, I can have a stroke of good luck and be able to have a long-lasting relationship!

(Man, I really have a lot to write today!)

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Umm... Okay, the bulk of my thoughts today are kind of random, so here they are...
Teh Crazi Brain Happinengz of Meh Brain!!

Arrgh, crap... I have to make myself dinner, since my mom and her boyfriend went out a barbecue without me... I'm thinkin' burgers...

Gawd, I want to do something tomorrow, but I don't have anyone to hang out with! Yet...

*sniff-sniff* ...What's that smell? I wanna say it's the dog, but he's not in here... What the hell? Wait! It's coming from outside? What is- EWW! GROSS!! WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!

Hmm... I just realized that I quoted a Maroon 5 song in the title of this journal... Heheh...

I can't decide which anime series to watch today: Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei? Or Hetalia? Let's spin the wheel! *spin* ...what? Watch BOTH? ...awesome...

Well, that about wraps this journal up. I'm going to go cook now. If anyone wants to message me more often, find me on GaiaOnline!